mimisosa

Recently got a new puppy. She's a cutie but still needs quite a bit of  training like house training and not to chew on things like my tablet cord.

it was really a let down since that was my back up cord, the 1st cord  crapped out the night before x.X
so no digital drawings for a while. but new cord isn't too expensive just have to wait

Alright so I’ve been in kinda a funk lately, like overly annalistic about life, confused about those closes to me, and basically and emotional mess.


So the main reason, me and my mate. A long distance relationship is sooooo hard, although 90% of my relationships have been it never gets easier.  The thing is we got together april 22 2010, and the summer was amazing we saw each other three times, however after that things started to change. Which is totally expected loosing the honeymoon feeling I guess; anyway that’s when school started for me and he got a job and a license and car. So we never have much time anymore.  He is this amazing social butterfly which is something I love about him of course. So he has a life and doesn’t sit around at home like I do when I don’t have school or work. So of course being me and female I began to worry he was losing interest, especially after the night he told me he wasn’t in the mood for fun time. Which he used to love so it was like a huge red flag.


However I had my eureaka moment, and the thing is I haven’t been fair to him. Blue is the best mate/boyfriend I have ever had. He really cares about me, and he’s one of the good ones.  If he changes his mind or wants out he would tell me about it he wouldn’t just disappear like many of the other guys I’ve dated have. I’ve had some really crappy and screwed up relationships, and they have left their scars deep in my heart and mind. However I know blue is one of the good ones, he’s busy but he does love me. Part of the problem I think is I just miss being with him and having us time I really need it. I need to stop worrying which I plan to.  Also jealously of ubber cutesy lovely dovey couples who spend lots of time together despite the distance. (AKA Tsu and SIO XD)


All this stuff played around in my head making me have bad thoughts and over reactions. It made me a truly emotional mess and even had me doubting my relationship. I also became confused about some of those closest to me. I have ex’s that I know would want me back (none of whom I would ever want to try again with, fool me once shame on me.) But I also have close friends who show interest. I did not do anything with anyone, but I had thoughts about it. Even though I didn’t act on these thoughts , I still felt so guilty as if I had. I hated myself and ended up crying to my older sis sapph about it for a full night. I guess it happens and I shouldn’t feel guilty, I mean hell my guy shows me pictures of people he thinks are attractive, (mostly boi’s XD)and looks at yiff all the time; it bugs me sometimes but mostly I’m okay with it. I know he’s loyal and he loves me, and he thinks I’m beautiful and such. I haven’t told him about these thoughts, I’m not sure if I should I mean I probably will soon. Hopefully he wont ask for specifics,  cause it was a guy who I told him I had a crush on and wasn’t over, then I thought I was but guess they come back. I mean I spend most of my time talking to him, he’s my online brother, and best friend. We spend a ton of time together cause we both have no life currently XD.  If I really think about it though he and I wouldn’t be compatible, we just are better off as friends and bro/sis.
The whole not having a life thing is completely my fault, I will admit it I have antisocial tendencies IRL. I don’t know how to make friends, not in the real world. Online I can make friends some of my best friends I have met online. Low self-esteem I guess, my body image issues, and the way I’m so quiet don’t help at all. I’m in anime club and it took me about two years to really get comfortable with just that group, this is the first year I’ve really started opening up and being talkative. Something I really need to work on.


Today has been the first good unemotional okay day I’ve had in a while so I’m really doing well today and it was a good day to go over things in a calm manner and really think about it. I’m gonna really try to be better.
Thanks for reading my little partial life confession and such.



Things to do:
Watch movie and write paper for Psyc by Monday.
Study and read Statistics book : finding r, correlations, and Z-scores ect.
Work on ideas or anniversary art
Work on art trade piece and look up shark reffs
Dishes
Consider doing cheap commissions to save for actuall sai program?

002.Nickname(s)? Kat, kitty, kit-kat, mimi, sosa, ect.
003. Zodiac sign? Gemini
004. Male or female? female
005. Elementary School? I finished it.
006. Middle School? Yep I did that too
007. High School? Done!  
008. Hair color? Brownish red
009. Long or short? Shortish but getting long >>
010. Loud or Quiet? Quiet, but with my friends...
011. Sweats or Jeans? Jeans
012. Phone or Camera? both
013. Health freak? no, not really
014. Drink or Smoke? neither
016. Eat or Drink? Both!
017. Piercings? Yeppers
018. Tattoos? Yes!! A pretty butterfly

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane? lots
020. Been in a car accident? Nope
021. Been in a fist fight? Not yet

FIRSTS:
022. First piercing? My ears  at three >>
023. First best friend? Traci?
025. First award? Probably something silly >>
026. First crush? Anthony young in first grade >w<
028. First big vacation? Eh, When I was 16 I went on a Hawaiian cruise ^,^

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to? Eric
030. Last person you texted? Eric
031. Last person you watched a movie with? Eric
032. Last food you ate? Meatball sub
033. Last movie you watched? I don't know the name!!!!!! ><
034. Last song you listened to? Um. . . .good question
035. Last thing you bought? A sandwhich
036. Last person you hugged? Eric

FAVES:
037. Food? French fries?
038. Drinks? Blue raspberry slushy
039. Clothing? Things comfortable?
040. Book? White oleander by janet fitch ((current))
041. Music? Owl city ?
042. Flower? Star gazer lillies
043. Colors? Purple
044. Movies? Tons!! American beauty
045. Shoes? Tennis ^^
046. Subjects? Psychology and arts. Sam as tsu ^,^

IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [x ] kissed in the snow
048. [x ] celebrated Halloween
049. [x] had your heart broken (not broken in like relationship wise)
050. [x ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [x ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet (Seriously I did! I got stuck in there and thought I would never come out! Thank goodness I did though....Phew!)
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [X] done something you've regretted
056.  x] broke a promise
057. [X] hid a secret
058. [X] pretended to be happy
059. [X] met someone who changed your life
060. [x] pretended to be sick
061. [ ] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [X] cried over the silliest thing (Yeah! I don't usually do it though)
064. [ ] ran a mile
065. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year (Yay for single people in 2009~)

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating? Frosted mini wheats
068. Drinking? Nothing but I want water
069. I'm about to? I dunno
070. Listening to? tv
071. Plans for today/tomorrow? school
072. Waiting for? Friday

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? I think maybe . . .but I dunno
074. Want to get married? I did but I dunno  anymore
075. Careers in mind? Psychologist

WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes? Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? Taller
078. Romantic or spontaneous? Both!
079. Nice stomach or nice arms? Either
080. Sensitive or loud? Ummm Sensitive?
081. Hookup or relationship? Relationship
082. Troublemaker or hesitant? a bit of both

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts? I don't wear them
084. Ran away from home? uh...no
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense? Not in self defense
086. Killed somebody? Hell no
087. Broken someone's heart? Yes and I'm not proud of it
088. Been arrested? No
089. Cried when someone died? Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself? Sometimes
091. Miracles? Of course
092. Love at first sight? Yeah I do
093. Heaven? no
094. Santa Claus? nope
095. Sex on the first date? Um. . . I dunno if I have or not = /
096. Kiss on the first date? yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now?  Yeah there is
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? No I'm not
099. Do you believe in God? No

1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
4. Have fun!

*Enter Mika walking in without a care in the world wearing a slight smile*

Q: Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Mika: My name is Mika Rene Lieto. Most call me Mika.


Q: Interesting... what's your current age?
Mika:  Seventeen.


Q: Uh huh... What's your favorite food?
Mika: Um. . . Fish.


Q: Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Mika:  Taka is my love.


Q: Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Mika:  Yes, but not nearly enough, we're both too stubborn and shy about it. He needs to get over that. . .


Q: Classic question! What's your favorite color?
Mika: Purple It's the color of my flames, there for the color of my soul.


Q: Who's your favorite author?
Mika: I wasn't allowed to read for pleasure as a child.


Q: Now what's your biggest fear?
Mika: . . . Losing Taka, he's all I have left.


Q: Who's your hero?
Mika: My hero ironically is my father, he wasn't a very good one but he saved my life once and I will never forget it.


Q: Okay, who is your worst enemy?
Mika: I think they are all dead.


Q: What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Mika: They are the same person and they are no longer alive.


Q: Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Mika: My creator. . . I would make her one of my fire creatures as a thank you.


Q: What do/did you want to be when you grow up?
Mika: I wanted to be free. Now I am clan leader against my will but what I want more than anything is to be a tavern owner with Taka.

Q: What's your worst nightmare?
Mika: My worst nightmare is a tie between my mother's death which I watched when I was seven and the memory of Taka trying to take his life.


Q: What's your lifelong dream?
Mika: Living my own life, I'm still working towards it.


Q: What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
Mika: I would be happy for the rest of my life.


Q: Okay, where's your favorite place to relax?
Mika: The tavern I live in, it's more of a home to me than any other place ever has been.


Q: Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Mika: Bartending.


Q: We're done! Now tag whoever you want. Thank you!
Mika: Um that's it?
~runs off back to the tavern~

65 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
It varies usually my hair

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Black

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
As long as I'm still single yeah I would.

4. Do you plan outfits?
Some times but most the time I throw on  whatever is closest

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Content for the first time in a while

6. What's the closest thing to you that is red?
Tissue box

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
It was strange and that's all I'm saying

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Nope

9. What are you craving right now?
chicken strips

10. Do you floss?
Not as often as I should  ><

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
St. Patricks day

12. Are you emotional?
Yes overly so

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
No way

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick

15. Do you like your hair?
yeah I just wish it would grow faster

16. Do you like yourself?
Yeah

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
No to the monkey face

18. What are you listening to right now?
Twizzlers commercial

19. Are your parents strict?
Hardly

20. Would you go sky diving?
No.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
No It cheese should not be chunky and creamy at the same time

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Nope, I probably wouldn't notice if I did.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Not really

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Yep yep glitter

25. How many countries have you visited?
1. Mexico

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
I don't think so

27. Ever been on a train?
Yeah it was long but comfortable, better then a bus

28. Brown or white eggs?
Brown but we never have them

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
Yesh

30. Do you use chap stick?
Not really

31. Do you own a gun?
Hell Yeah

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yeah I'm decent though I can't catch a fly or anything

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
no one.

34. Are you too forgiving?
Yeah

35. Ever been in love?
Of course

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
I don't know

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Yeah yummie
38. Last time you cried?
last night

39. What was the last question you asked?
How was your day?

40. Favorite time of the year?
Summer time

41. Do you have any tattoos?
Yeah, butterfly right shoulder

42. Are you sarcastic?
I have my moments

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes I love that movie >w<

44. Ever walked into a wall?
~nods~

45. Favorite color?
Purple

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yeah once was for a play though but I guess I did a good job >>

47. Is your hair curly?
um not so much
48. What was the last CD you bought?
Fearless

49. Do looks matter?
Not so much

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
Forgive yes, get back with them, no

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Not so much

52. Do you like your life right now?
Give me a few days

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
No I can't do that

54. Can you handle the truth?
Yeah

55. Do you have good vision?
I have no idea, I think I do
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
dislike yes. Hate no

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Um depends, not so much

58. The last person you held hands with?
Eddie tailfeathers

59. What are you wearing?
Sweat pants and a tank top

60.What is your favourite animal?
Hawk

61. Where was your default picture taken at?
I drew it. . . .

62. Can you hula hoop?
No I guess I don't have the hip ability
63. Do you have a job?
yeah.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
McDonalds

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yeah who hasn't